City Life

I have a pretty big desire to live life to the fullest. There are days where I feel like I could conquer the world, but there are a lot of days where I go to bed feeling I wasted my day. To me, living life to the fullest requires a lot of sacrifice…personal sacrifice. I’m not really looking to benefit myself….I really have this desire to just overwhelm people with love and optimism. I want to sacrifice my own desires and really try to focus on loving people with my whole heart. I want so many people to be able to experience the love I have from my family, my sweetheart, my undeniable friends, and of course- my God. I want people to also feel the happiness I have in little things… like going to the Farmer’s market, or walking over to a coffee shop over my lunch break to read or journal, lighting all the candles in my apartment, or to cuddle up on my couch after cleaning the whole apartment… just little things that may seem juvenile but really make me so happy. I know each person is unique…and with that means everyone has different likes and dislikes. I just want others to be able to see those little things that might just make your day.
Besides focusing on shining through to others, I really feel like I need to embrace life in the cities a little more. I hated it when I first moved here. I moved right downtown to NCU, and I was all of the sudden surrounded with noises all over at night, a horrible smog/stench at times, no stars, and just cramped in by skyscapers that wouldn’t allow me to experience a sunset every night.
As I’ve spent over 2 years here, I’ve started to see the city through different eyes. I see opportunity. Opportunity to explore diversity. Opportunity to eat more than just Taco John’s and McDonalds. Opportunity for my career. To find new friends. To experience a different church. To be independent. To make organic choices- both with food and travel. To be a shelter for travelers that come to the cities.
I never thought I’d say this, but I really do see beauty in this city. I don’t want to miss any opportunity that’s waiting for me to embrace- whether it’s in the city or with people.