I’ve been thinking the past two days about who I am. Ha. kinda a weird sentence, but the truth. I’ve changed a lot in the last few years, but I’d never go back. Overall, I’ve changed for the good (well, in my opinion) but others may look at me and say I haven’t. They’d say I’m not the same person I was four years ago. Truth is, I’m not! And I’m so so thankful for that. God has brought people into my life that have helped me to see life with a new pair of looking glasses.
With that being said, there are times when I meet people that I wish I could be more like them. Not solely their personality, but it could also be their demeanor, their style, the spirit they have about them, the music they listen to, where they buy food, their thoughts on God, their choice of vocabulary… the list is endless.
We all have people that we admire. The problem with me is that I find my personality temporarily changing around different people. As harsh as this is, I guess that means I’m two faced at times. When I’m with certain friends, I may choose do talk different, dress different, and so forth. I might even try to sound intellectual just to fit in. Or maybe I would try to think of as many witty comments so people around me think I’m funny.
I think it’s a good think to have examples of people that you strive to be more like…but I don’t want to continually change these petty things just to fit in better. I wish I could just be satisfied by wearing what I like to wear instead of being worried about not being hip enough or something. I wish I could just get along with some friends without feeling like I should be as funny as possible just to fit in.
The only problem is me, and the only answer is me.
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